I must have dozed off because I found myself waking up from something and it almost had to be a nap. I glanced around the little mossy room (for want of a better word) that I was in to discern what might have woke me up, had I indeed been asleep. I did not see anything untoward, but something was different. I had the distinct feeling that I was not alone. A slow examination did not turn up another person. Then it dawned on me! Of course I would not see a person. I was a warm glow so if there were someone else in my space they would, of course, be a warm glow also. With this in mind, I once more inspected my area paying strict attention to detail. It was then that I noticed a small depression across the area from where I stood. Well, it wasn't so much a depression as a sort of shadow, but not a darker shadow. It was much lighter. While I could not see my warm glow self, I judged it to be much smaller than me.
Since I was getting pretty good at the floating now, I slowly drifted until I hovered almost level with the whatever it was on the floor of my mossy room. I reached out with what I thought to be my hand and was overcome with a feeling of having been there and done that before. I looked deep within myself and I felt my Sysncyk. Sysnyck was a dog I had many years ago. She was a little poodle/Chihuahua mix. She had died of kidney failure 25 years before and I had mourned her for years. I knew she was with me at this moment. I knew when I found her that Charmin, the calico cat was beside her. I felt like I was coming home. They had waited all these years to welcome me to this place. I had read the poem about the Rainbow Bridge many times and taken great comfort knowing that my pets would wait there for me. I could see them as clear as day. Somehow I knew that this was all in my mind, because they did not exist in the bodies that they had before and I knew I did not either. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and I could see those two little animals in all their glory. This was so damn cool!
I began to get excited thinking about all I would soon behold. It was just a matter of figuring out how to get around in this new world of mine. I lay back against something and I could feel the little bodies settling on either side of me. Some how I knew that it would all be fine. And it seemed right that I find my animals first because they were devoted to me and had waited so patiently all those years. I knew mother was in my future as were my siblings, and grandma and great grandma. And Kenny. And Duane. And Sherman. And no doubt many others that I had forgotten, but I had the rest of eternity to find them. No hurry.
The one I was most anxious to see was the one called Jesus. I needed answers from him. I needed to get this judging thing out in the open so I knew which way I was going. It was the wondering that had me anxious now.
But right now I could feel another nap coming on!
Since I was getting pretty good at the floating now, I slowly drifted until I hovered almost level with the whatever it was on the floor of my mossy room. I reached out with what I thought to be my hand and was overcome with a feeling of having been there and done that before. I looked deep within myself and I felt my Sysncyk. Sysnyck was a dog I had many years ago. She was a little poodle/Chihuahua mix. She had died of kidney failure 25 years before and I had mourned her for years. I knew she was with me at this moment. I knew when I found her that Charmin, the calico cat was beside her. I felt like I was coming home. They had waited all these years to welcome me to this place. I had read the poem about the Rainbow Bridge many times and taken great comfort knowing that my pets would wait there for me. I could see them as clear as day. Somehow I knew that this was all in my mind, because they did not exist in the bodies that they had before and I knew I did not either. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and I could see those two little animals in all their glory. This was so damn cool!
I began to get excited thinking about all I would soon behold. It was just a matter of figuring out how to get around in this new world of mine. I lay back against something and I could feel the little bodies settling on either side of me. Some how I knew that it would all be fine. And it seemed right that I find my animals first because they were devoted to me and had waited so patiently all those years. I knew mother was in my future as were my siblings, and grandma and great grandma. And Kenny. And Duane. And Sherman. And no doubt many others that I had forgotten, but I had the rest of eternity to find them. No hurry.
The one I was most anxious to see was the one called Jesus. I needed answers from him. I needed to get this judging thing out in the open so I knew which way I was going. It was the wondering that had me anxious now.
But right now I could feel another nap coming on!
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