I stretched out my arm and found Sysnyck. The other hand found Charmin. I was amazed at how content I was. I was alone in wherever I was, but I was happy. Was this how it would always be? I thought back to my visit from Mother and my visit from Jake. That had been nice, but was that all there was to this? Just set here, take naps and wait for someone to visit? I wondered, if I left my mossy little room how would I find my way back? Well, how had I found my way here in the first place? I peered through the opening and saw the brightness that awaited me outside. I somehow knew it was time. I thought myself forward and so I moved.
On a whim I moved forward about 10 feet and turned to look at my mossy room. There was nothing there. Nothing. I some how knew it was there, but I just wasn't seeing it. So I turned back and once more moved forward. The air was neither hot nor cold. There was no wind. I drifted slowly forward, or at least what I thought was forward. There was no sun, but the light was brilliant. I stopped and listened and I heard nothing. Was I the only one here? Wait! I found mother because I thought of her. The same with Jake. Sysnyck and Charmin had come from my subconscious. So I stopped.
I closed my eyes and I though of my late husband, Kenny. I saw his brilliant blue eyes and I heard his laughter. And there he was! He was exactly as I remembered him, but without the oxygen. He wore his Levi's and a tee shirt. This one was red. Red had always been my favorite on him. He smiled and then laughed. "It sure took you long enough to get here! I have a bone to pick with you."
"Oh, great. now what? I thought we would at least have a little time to visit. It has been 15 years you know. Don't you wonder what I have been doing?"
He smiled at that. "Silly girl. I peeked in on you from time to time. Kind of surprised me that you never married again. I thought that tall guy from St. Louis was going to get you cornered, but then he died. Too bad. Nice the way he changed his thought process and left you all that money to take care of people with. And you made good use of it. Helped a lot of people."
I smiled. "That was fun. I wish I could have spent my whole life spending money on other people, but you know how that goes."
"Sure do! But here is the deal. Remember when we made our will, and we had DNR's written up and then when I died you could not find mine and you know how that turned into a royal mess. I was really mad when I woke up alive. I had died and it was great and then all at once I was jerked back to earth and had all those tubes and stuff....I was so mad at you that I could have throttled you. You know that don't you?"
"Yes" I said sadly, "but I was so upset that morning that I could not think straight. I did not know that you were already dead. No one told me. I thought they were just asking as a precaution." I stopped and remembered that morning long ago. Then he smiled.
"Well, here is the thing. I think it was the best thing for me. That way I had time to think back on my life and to come to terms with every aspect of it. Some was good, some was bad, but it gave me time to put it all in perspective. And then when I did die for real, it was so much easier. Leaving the earth, the kids, the grandkids was hard, but it was time. By that time letting go was easier."
"I just went to sleep one night and never woke up the next morning. Sure glad nobody found me and stuck me on a machine." I looked at him, but he already knew how I had died. Probably knew it before me!
"Yep. That's the way to do it alright. So what are you going to do all day?" He looked at me quizzically.
"I don't know! I have so many questions. Is it always day? Is it ever night? Does it rain? When will I see people? Do we eat? Where do you live? Will we still be married? Are there angels? Have you seen your mother? Have you seen my mother." I stopped when I realized he was no longer there. I had not seen him leave. He just sort of wasn't there anymore.
I thought about my new home and was surprised to find I was in it and my dog and cat were at my feet. This afterlife is sure taking some getting used to.
On a whim I moved forward about 10 feet and turned to look at my mossy room. There was nothing there. Nothing. I some how knew it was there, but I just wasn't seeing it. So I turned back and once more moved forward. The air was neither hot nor cold. There was no wind. I drifted slowly forward, or at least what I thought was forward. There was no sun, but the light was brilliant. I stopped and listened and I heard nothing. Was I the only one here? Wait! I found mother because I thought of her. The same with Jake. Sysnyck and Charmin had come from my subconscious. So I stopped.
I closed my eyes and I though of my late husband, Kenny. I saw his brilliant blue eyes and I heard his laughter. And there he was! He was exactly as I remembered him, but without the oxygen. He wore his Levi's and a tee shirt. This one was red. Red had always been my favorite on him. He smiled and then laughed. "It sure took you long enough to get here! I have a bone to pick with you."
"Oh, great. now what? I thought we would at least have a little time to visit. It has been 15 years you know. Don't you wonder what I have been doing?"
He smiled at that. "Silly girl. I peeked in on you from time to time. Kind of surprised me that you never married again. I thought that tall guy from St. Louis was going to get you cornered, but then he died. Too bad. Nice the way he changed his thought process and left you all that money to take care of people with. And you made good use of it. Helped a lot of people."
I smiled. "That was fun. I wish I could have spent my whole life spending money on other people, but you know how that goes."
"Sure do! But here is the deal. Remember when we made our will, and we had DNR's written up and then when I died you could not find mine and you know how that turned into a royal mess. I was really mad when I woke up alive. I had died and it was great and then all at once I was jerked back to earth and had all those tubes and stuff....I was so mad at you that I could have throttled you. You know that don't you?"
"Yes" I said sadly, "but I was so upset that morning that I could not think straight. I did not know that you were already dead. No one told me. I thought they were just asking as a precaution." I stopped and remembered that morning long ago. Then he smiled.
"Well, here is the thing. I think it was the best thing for me. That way I had time to think back on my life and to come to terms with every aspect of it. Some was good, some was bad, but it gave me time to put it all in perspective. And then when I did die for real, it was so much easier. Leaving the earth, the kids, the grandkids was hard, but it was time. By that time letting go was easier."
"I just went to sleep one night and never woke up the next morning. Sure glad nobody found me and stuck me on a machine." I looked at him, but he already knew how I had died. Probably knew it before me!
"Yep. That's the way to do it alright. So what are you going to do all day?" He looked at me quizzically.
"I don't know! I have so many questions. Is it always day? Is it ever night? Does it rain? When will I see people? Do we eat? Where do you live? Will we still be married? Are there angels? Have you seen your mother? Have you seen my mother." I stopped when I realized he was no longer there. I had not seen him leave. He just sort of wasn't there anymore.
I thought about my new home and was surprised to find I was in it and my dog and cat were at my feet. This afterlife is sure taking some getting used to.
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